my desire ix to have you .

2006-10-29T08:24:00.000-08:00

i'm mad !

2006-10-25T23:11:00.000-07:00

heyyas all .
hmms .
jz got back from skewl .
had fun time at skewl .
hmms . ferst thing i reached skewl ,
a teacher called my name .
hahhas .
she wanna take a pic of me .
wakaka .
shocking .
nabilah join our class .
had fun .
went tuh tha library .
took pics .
listen tuh musics .
hahahs .
kecoh !
hmms . yesterday , went tuh rizal's place .
nicey house he got .
big one .
hehe .
went dere wid amir , khai , irah , saed , ika & sara .
i dunno why .
but , everybody thinks amir is my guy .
hahhas .
he likes me . pity him .
i dun wanna give him a chance tuh be wid me .
afta dat , went tuh bt panjang .
khai's aunt place .
eat dere .
den , off we go .
tuh tanglin halt chap lau .
hmms . seems like , i love dat place .
hahhas .
wid those jokers . fun !
took taxi .
waited fer tha bus fer so long .
hahahs .
thought of waiting fer wak , budden , dint have any time .
as , i was rushing tuh meet my lan . (:
cz , irah told me . he's leaving tuhdae .
so , went tuh meet him last nite .
fucking hell .
i dun even recongnise him .
he was so damn FUCKING HOT .
hahahs .
he dyed his hair .
wid his clothes . and blah3 .
omg . wanna faint .
hahahs .
cute tao ! hahahs .
budden , in tha end .
we both quarrel .
haiz .
cried all night .
jz bcz of him .
ppl was looking at me .
cz , i was crying at public .
irah and sara dint noe wad tuh do .
sara called lan .
but , he ignore her .
cried all tha way .
took a taxi .
stopped at clementi .
tuh drop irah and sara off .
he wants me tuh forget him .
but , i dunno how tuh .
seriously .
i cant forget him . haiz .
reached home arnd 11pm .
daddie was mad cz i dint keep my promised .
my eyes were damn red .
inform daddie dat i was home .
den , went straight into tha room .
my cuz was in my room .
sis was shock .
saw me in pain .
crying like hell .
dint stupid stuffs .
daddie came in .
talk tuh me .
trying make me stop crying .
haiz .
dint sleep .
was thinking .
arnd midnite .
he called me .
talk tuh me .
while talking tuh him , i was crying .
missing him lots .
cant bear tuh lose him .
lina called me afta dat .
she dint noe i was crying .
but , dat fucker told her .
damn idiot .
she talked tuh me .
trying tuh calm me down .
haiz . she's trying tuh get him fer me .
asking him not tuh leave me . i CANT forget him .
khai called me .
asking me tuh forget him .
fucked up .
arnd 2am , dan msg me .
asking me out .
tuhmorrow . going tuh sentosa .
hopefully , i'll able tuh make it .
cz , i really wanna meet him badly .
haiz .
i really do and really need lan by my side .
i jz knew him .
but , i cant let him go .
till here den i guess .
takkaire .
bbais . taggie me .

-much love-
tashha-dead;
im dying inside.

2006-10-24T09:57:00.000-07:00

hello hello.
camat harie rayer maap zahir dan batin sume.!
hehehs.
hmms.long time nebar update.
finally.
its rayer.time past so fast.
hmms.jz got back.
from p.ris.
dint have tha mood tuh celebrate dis year acherli.
so boring.
went tuh onlie 3 houses.
met my lost and found cuzzie.
she's getting sweeter and prettier.
hahhas.
well, im now mixing wid frens living at c'wealth.
irah introduce them tuh me.
hmms.
had so much fun wid dem.
joking and laughing.
knew dem on saturday.
went out wid dem.
on sunday, went tuh c'wealth.
ton at clementi.
fucked up babe.
irah bueh sak.
haiz.
we went tuh clementi.
tuh fetch her at 12am.
but,in tha end,
she met us at 7am in her skewl UNIFORM.
alahai.
and, i was tha onlie ghurl wen she was not dere.
fucked up sak.
den, went tuh clementi.
met lina otw dere.
met her at 830am.
went back at 660pm.
tired plus sleepy.
well, jz noe dem fer 2 days.
and,we're damn close.
hahhas.
well,currently,3 of dem are chasing me.
hahhas.
lina interested in one of dem.
budden,dat guy likes me.
hahhas.
pity her.
she dint get him.
dat guy doesnt like her.
HAHHAS.
otey larh.
till here.
tired now.
bbais,
takkaire.
muackz.
taggie me.

2006-10-09T05:40:00.000-07:00

hmms . hello hello . (:
finally . exams are over .
now , jz worried abt tha results.
science paper was damn fucking difficult.
cant do it .
but , i managed to answer all tha qns.
i dun understand a thing from dat paper !
was sleeping in class.
during exams.
haxhas.
luckily,tha teacher was a goodie one.
wake me up. =X
hmms. something ix wrong wid me.
since saturday.
i dint tok wid anione.
esp, haziq.
cz, something ix bugging me.
problems all over.
i dunno how i shud settle my probs.
she's not dere fer me now.
as, she's leaving tuhmorrow.
hmms. dan, suddenly.
kept quiet agen.
dint msg or kol me nimore.
maybe, he's ppd is running low.
gonna topup for him lata.(:
now, i miss izwan.
wanna meet him.
but, i noe.
since i moved in tuh dis house,
i cant go out.
i hv tuh follow tha rules here.
haiz.
how i wished she's not leaving,
so dat, everything will be normal.
im worried if she's going.
haiz.
tuhmorrow no skewl.
dun feel like goin tuh skewl.
oteyy larh.
i hv no mood ryte now.
fucked up.
agen.
i dunno wads goin on wid haziq.
let him be.
we'll jz see.
till here.
takkaire.
bbais.
- much love. -

2006-10-08T03:53:00.000-07:00

hmms . elo . (:
dint update recently.
busy wid exams.
haxhas.
hmms.well, im not at home now.
gonna break fast soon.
eating pizza.(:
hehehs.
went out last nite.
wid iman,faruq,haziq,irah,etc.
break fast at far east.
den,went tuh geylang wid irah.
pity her.
she lost her money.
haxhas.
afta dat,went tuh esplanade.
was dere until 10pm.
den, proceed to wlds.
tuh mit my darling.
went to wlds wid sepet and irah.
met him.
miss him.
love him.
now and forever.
reached home arnd 130am.
had fun.
otey den.
till here.
update more next time.
-much love-

2006-10-04T03:11:00.000-07:00

hmms . eylox . (:
its heppie day fer me tuhdae .
well , long time i dint update .
hehe .
hmms . busy larh .
studying . haxhas . mcm pham .
dis week , exams week .
hmms . chatted wid my darling last night .
so heppie . finally .
he's online .
met him earlier .
he's damn sweet !
went to marsiling jz tuh meet him .
he's getting hancem !
hehe . i miss his smile .
i love him lots ! !
okehh larhh .
he finally gave up .
haiz .
i dunno why .
FUCKED UP .
bbais .

2006-09-24T18:39:00.000-07:00

hmms . eylos . (:
its tha 2nd day of fasting month .
in skewl ryte now .
met him leadi . (:
so damn heppie .
he's kiut .
his face was different from wad i saw in tha pics .
esp , since he dyed his hair .
finally .
tok tuh him . met him .
a fun guy .
went out wid irah , iman & sepet .
ate at lau pa sat . haxhas .
had fun though .
den , proceed tuh esplanade .
as per normal .
tuh meet my baby din . (:
seriously . im damn heppie .
finally , met him .
was sitting and toking happily wid him .
den , i saw haziq & razif .
haiz . dint tok tuh haziq at all .
i noe he's still heartbroken .
im jz waiting fer him tuh come back .
dat's all .
seriously .
i dint have any intention tuh hurt him dat much .
im truly sorry .
its all too late now .
miss him lots .
din , i miss you . !
haxhas .
wanna meet you agen .
cyng u many2 .
hehe . hmms .
wokie den . till here i guess . in skewl ryte now .
takkaire . bbais .
taggie me aytes .

- much love -

2006-09-20T07:47:00.000-07:00

hello . ((:
updating agen .
hmms . skewl was great .
reached home arnd 330pm .
finally . my problem . settle .
abt yana and tha rest . (:
great dat its all over .
myra kol me earlier .
pity her .
dint have any topic tuh tok .
in tha end , i dozed off .
haxhas .
she tok tuh herself . haxhas .
swie .
slept at 5pm .
woke up arnd 915pm .
had a great time at skewl .
esp in class .
during PAL .
wid mifzal and hafiz . (:
had so much fun . laughing tuhgeda .
how i wished i cud turn back time and be wid hafiz agen .
haxhas . no craps . im attached leadi . ((:
if delphia read dis , tuhmorrow morning ,
i'll be dead . haxhas .
yes delphia , i'll be wid izwan as long as he wants me too .
9 more days tuh go .
hafta admit dat im NOT readi . seriously . am not .
hmms . haziq been keeping quiet recently .
dun wanna disturb him as he needs time tuh cool down .
i was at fault all dis while . i reali dunno wad else tuh do .
except fer saying SORRY .
nehmynd . maybe fer tha time being ,
i wun disturb him .
as , he's HEARTBROKEN .
thanks tuh me . all dis happened .
hmms . mxg my sweetie .
dint wiply . arghh !
rabak ! ):
chat wid boi cheekie earlier .
boohoo ! he's SWEET ! damn FUCKING SWEET .
haxhas . i admire his style .
hopefully , dis sat , he'll make it .
and , i can mit him . yay !
noe him from frensta acherli .
he's great . hmms .
reali dunno wad else tuh say .
okie larh . till here .
takkaire . bbais .
tag mie aytex . ((:

- much love -

2006-09-19T03:04:00.000-07:00

boohoo ! ((:
haxhas . yipee !
finally . a bloggie of my own . haxhas .
thanks tuh my darlink myra . (:
thanks sweetie .
damn . she had a hard time doin' my bloggie .
almost 2 hrs . haxhas .
pity her . nehmynd .
next time i'll treat u mkan next time kkaes .
at myra's place ryte now .
went tuh KFC wid her earlier .
tuh bad . onlie tha two of us .
heedayah went fer study group . and tha rest , i dunno . (:
heart aching recently .
chatted wid boi cheekie last night .
he melts my heart . haxhas .
he treasure me most . and , dint treasure his life .
dat's so sweet of him .
now i noe why he dun wanna lemme go .
his heart is breaking . im swie fer hurting u all this while .
jz dun want u tuh shed tears cz of mie agen .
dun wanna hurt u nimore .
now , its over btwn us .
we've gone our own ways .
dat's tha onlie way out . tha onlie way .
haikel's bdae yesterday .
called him . he wasnt heppie at all .
agen , same problem .
dun understand him .
why he always behave like dis .
tot of miting him . den , changed my mind .
swie uh haikel . cant give u wad u want on ur bdae . ):
oh ya , im NOT using fwenster blog nimore .
teehee . kkaes uhh . gtg now .
takkaire . bbais .

- much love -